I do not have big goals in life, nothing I want to go over there on the horizon. I rarely think about what I want to have achieved in three years or maybe in five years. Sure, I have dreams, but they mean very little for me. Dreams are only dreams, small dreams that are fun to think about but really do not have to become a reality. A major goal which lies far away feels very vague - and dream-like - for me.
I think it has with my restlessness to do. I've never had the strength to stake everything on one card and really concentrate on an area to be really good in this. It has probably to do with the confirmation requirement. In the situation when I begin to have setbacks, it's so easy to jump over to something completely different interests. Yes, it is enough that I will reach a level where I no longer feel the same increase in the confirmation anymore. In stand-up process, I got such a lot of credit just at the beginning and then I was certainly better at creating humor, but the praise leveled off and did not increase anymore as much. For obvious reasons, of course, my friends got used to that I was doing this. In exactly the situation I could very well have ended up with stand up comedy and launched another project. Luckily, I chose instead the other possible option - I raised the difficulty level of my stand-up effort and wrote a one-man show. Difficult, but very rewarding. Thanks to the work on the show, I could once again get the chance to reach a new peak of confirmation. And that's where I am today.
I have a wide range of parallel interests, or call it project, which I have been running in recent years. Sherlock Holmes are understood to be one of them. In 2009-2010, I was also very active in social media bubble, in parallel with that I became involved much in ebokens development and discussed the future BOOKS AND PUBLISHING. From time to time I visit these areas, even though I over the past year have not done any miracles there. My interest in the Swedish entertainment history has given rise to some books and my interest in Stockholm at the turn might make the same in the future. All of these interests coexist within me and I rarely know in advance what I will spend my time in a year. It all depends on what chances that arise. Sometimes it helps my chances along the way, but often it's just about having the antenna on and pay attention to what is the chance, even if it is disguised.
This way of thinking means that I rarely have the opportunity to become the best in any area. But there is also no need for me, I just want to be good. That way I can reach the praise, but do not risk a multi-year effort goes nowhere.
Rather than invest long term, I share in my life in the interim. Almost all of my projects are short term. I'm leaving now rarely into projects that will be longer than six months. I've found that just six months is a perfect project time for me. It is short enough that I will not have time to get tired and it is long enough for me to reach a milestone, which is very realistic but still very loud manner.
In stand-up force was my first semi-annual project to be among the top three in Bungee Comedy Final. When it was done, I was ready for the next six-month milestone, I put up my hour-long one-man show. None of these projects was something I had planned, but I seized the chance to escape because they suited me. I usually assume four components to assess whether I want to focus on possible: I have the iron will, I am willing to sacrifice time, I can support it through my networking and I have at least an ounce of talent for it? Did I miss any of this had I not gotten myself into the project. There is no reason to invest in something unless it will be possible to implement. That way, I understood a bit cowardly - I do not gamble that much, but concentrate on relatively realistic goals. But it's also half the criterion that force it. I would for example not to say that I'm going to make it as a comedian on TV within half a year, because I know it is not realistic. It is something that is influenced by a host of other factors and people. Therefore, almost all of my targets of substance, that they almost only due to my own performance and on what I can produce. Other things I can not influence, such as dissemination of results. In my last milestone was just putting up a show - I could not control how big the audience would be. In the long run, I of course hope that the substance affects the other factors, but I have never in my milestones.
After the show I ended up in a project in terms of vacuum. I would obviously have been struggling with putting up more performances of the show. But I feel that I nearly exhausted my acquaintance on the potential audience, at least here in Stockholm. And I'm far too unknown to attract another audience. Or I could give myself in to a new little book, but at the moment, I have not seized any such chance of escape.
But then a few weeks ago I had lunch with a comedian friend and was very inspired.
I am far from being a talented comedian yet. In my show, I managed well with the audiences' attention and entice them to laugh. But where, I had free reign on stage for an hour and used the first quarter to build my character, so I then had three quarters to destroying it. Out in the comedy clubs are a different story. Where can I do the same thing in seven minutes. Or ten, or perhaps the longest cases fifteen. And where I have to be constantly funny, like using body language, facial expressions, sounds, distorted voices and to generally act more - but it feels like a play. So far I have built my humor very much on the written word. I have designed my jokes and the show, I also sloppy jam of myself as young. But I'm far from a complete comedian.
My new objective is that in six months put together a 20 minute material that is so much fun that I can attract any audience into laughter. Even in those clubs where I have not really worked. With such material, I have the future opportunity to be the heater and support comedians to real headliner comedians. My targets thus include no such gig, just that I will create the opportunity for me to get them. Exactly how I should proceed will be the subject of wild experimentation in the spring - and I will report this to the blog. I'm going to fail more frequently than ever before, because I will go the whole hog. I will always try again and test the old in new ways. It will take place at different free clubs in Stockholm, where such experimentation is fine. If I ever appear on the pay club during the spring run of course I tried old material - where the rules are different, which is not the time to experiment.
I take the course over our heads. This development should actually take several years. But as you know, I deal only with the six-month project.
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